Monday, June 30, 2008

Thank You

I just wanted to post and say thanks to the many who stopped by to offer support. It was a pretty rough weekend, lots of hating the world and feeling like I was losing faith. I really felt like I couldn't even count any more the many times over and over that I had a negative result on a home pregnancy test, the many times I got my period when I was so sure that I was pregnant, and the many miscarriages. I'm feeling a little better right now, still sad and trying not to feel hopeless.
My husband is being really supportive, but there are even times when he just can't say the right thing either. I'm trying not to take it out on him, it's so easy to do that.
I'm trying to catch up on all of your blogs as well. It's been kinda hard to focus right now and stay positive.

But again, thanks for all of the kind words.

14 comments:

Daniella said...

hugs to you - thinking and keeping you in my prayers always....

iwantitvmuch said...

I hear you and can feel the sadness. I'm trying for the 5th year and had done an IVF too. Press on till you find happiness.

Hope2morrow said...

Sounds like you and are in the deepest despairs of uncertainty right now. I hope you feel better soon, but I understand your pain and am here for you, dear....

sara said...

Hope you're doing okay and have a restful holiday weekend. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Ally said...

I'm sending you lots of hugs and I wish you a place of peace and calm. This is not easy and you will not be able to be Pollyanna all the time. Let yourself feel the upset and the sadness. It will pass in time. Good luck to you-you're in my prayers.

Joannah said...

I just got home and am now checking in on my blogging buddies. I've read your previous post, and I just want to let you know that I'm sorry that things turned out the way they did. I'm hoping that your next transfer will bring you all you've been hoping for.

((hugs))

Just Me. said...

This is my first time on your blog and I know the sadness you're going through. There are no words to comfort the dull pain. *hugs*

Hope2morrow said...

Hey- Just wanted to check on you. Hope you are doing okay!

sara said...

Just me checking in to say I hope you're still doing okay.

Stacy said...

Hang in there. You'll have a happy ending!!!

Stacy in southern CA

A Decade of BFNs said...

I am so sorry. I hope you will soon have your dreams come true.

twondra said...

I fell upon your blog and I hope it's okay I came here. I recently underwent IVF. Our 4 eggs fertilized but didn't divide so our transfer was canceled which is rare. It's so hard, isn't it? I'm so sorry. I'm thinking of you.

I did write this and people have said it has helped them: http://twondra.blogspot.com/2008/10/letter-to-babies.html

I'm thinking of you. If you ever need to talk, I'm here.

Rachel said...

My thoughts are with you!

Elisabeth said...

Hello!

First and foremost, I am so sorry about your recent chemical pregnancy.

My name is Elisabeth, and I am an infertility / repeated pregnancy loss "veteran". You can read a little bit about me and my experiences in my blog: drhousewife.blogspot.com . I am completing a PhD in Counseling Psychology, and my dissertation is focused upon the impact of infertility on marriage. I believe strongly that there is a need for better support services for men and women who are undergoing IF diagnosis and treatment, and my hope is that this study will aid in the development of such services.

I am contacting you after stumbling across your blog. I am recruiting participants for my study, and wanted to invite you and your husband to take part. All that would be involved would be the completion of an online survey, that would take approximately 20 minutes. All couples who complete the surveys will receive a voucher good for a pair of free movie tickets at a Regal Cinemas.

Please let me know if you are interested by emailing me at UTInfertilityResearch@gmail.com . I have included the criteria for participation below.

Feel free to pass information along to anyone you know who might be interested in contributing to this study.

Best of luck to you!
Elisabeth


Member of a married, heterosexual couple
Both you and your spouse are between the ages of 20 – 45
You do not have any biological or adopted children living in your home
You are not currently pregnant
Either you, your spouse, or both has received an infertility diagnosis
You have received treatment for infertility in the past six months, or plan to do so in the next six months
Both you and your partner are willing to participate & have access to the internet