Not so bad...

I'm happy to report that the injections are not so bad. The first one didn't hurt at all, in fact I didn't even feel it and I thought my husband was playing a trick on me. Of course I almost passed out right before he did it, and that was only after I kept saying "I can't do it, I can't do it". Then I started freaking out because I thought if I can't do these little small needles, how the hell am I going to do the trigger shot or the progesterone shots?

The last few pinched a little more but I think I was squeezing my skin too tight. And in case you're wondering, I haven't given myself the shot yet...my husband has been so good about it. I'm just hoping that he can do all of them for me because I really don't think I can do it myself. He wants me to practice in case he has to work late and I tried to last night but I just couldn't do it.

Maybe knowing that he was right there and would do it for me made me not really try. Now I'm just waiting for my period so that I can go in for a day 3 ultrasound. Blah, that should be fun.

Thanks for all the encouragement out there. I promise to let you guys know if I actually get up enough nerve to do it myself.

Lupron Eve

First off I'd like to apologize for my absence. I have no excuse, I've just been not feeling like myself lately. Couldn't bring myself to blog much. I have to catch up on all my fellow bloggers as well.

I've been waiting for the day to come, when I would officially start this whole IVF thing, and that day is tomorrow. I ovulated on the 8th, so tomorrow night I give myself my first Lupron injection. Up until now, this whole thing has been surreal. I never thought I would be doing this and even after all the appointments and picking up all of my prescriptions, it seemed as if it was gonna happen to someone else.

I started taking a different pre*natal vitamin as well and it makes me feel a little weird. I'm not sure if I'm nauseous or not. I guess that's a good thing.

But I'm so nervous for tomorrow. I've watched a bunch of women on the internet giving themselves their first Lupron injection and everyone seems like it's no big deal.

So it's no big deal for me either. But yes it is. I can't make up my mind. I told my mom today that after tomorrow my life will change and hopefully for the better. This is the beginning of something great. I can just feel it.

I promise not to take so long in between posts!!!