Book Ban

I spent the morning reading from my book, the one that describes in great detail every step I'll have to take if I do IVF. It started out ok. I read about insurance coverage, which I'm not too worried about. Then I got to the prescription part and thought about how I didn't discuss that part with my insurance carrier. We talked about the IVF coverage, but they let me know that the medications will be handled by a separate part of the insurance.

So, I'm trying not to think about that until I make the call.

Then I started reading about all the testing and then I got to the part about the injections. I know that I have mentioned before about how I am not a big fan of needles. Well, I had to put the book down, and then I had to bury it deep into the bottom of my huge pocketbook.

I started getting a panicky feeling in my chest and I don't want to have a panic attack before tomorrow. It's good to know what I'm in for, but I will end up freaking out about it in the doctor's office and I don't want to do that.

I won't have any problem taking time off of work, because from what I'm reading, I will need it. I did go out and buy a nice new desk calendar so that I can keep track of everything, but I think I didn't buy the right one. I think I'll need a whole page for each day and not just half.

Maybe I'll buy a nice journal too, because I'm gonna have to start keeping track of all the insurance paperwork and medications.

Maybe I'm also jumping ahead of myself. I really should wait until I go to the doctor tomorrow and then speak with the counselor.

OK, I'll stop now and I'll leave the book in my pocketbook. I have the questions I need to ask so I won't overload my brain right now. It's jumbled enough as it is.

PS. tomorrow would've been my due date. :(